Metamorphosis - Right in the Childhood, Part 1


You know, when I was younger I thought adults had it all figured out. I somehow knew that, when I became an adult, things would just make sense. After all, I was just a kid. I didn’t know any better, so I went around making mistakes all the time. I said the wrong things. I was selfish. I just simply lived as any other kid does – or so I figured at the time.

Well, here I am many years later and I’ve reached the stronger struts of adulthood. I’ve acknowledged Jesus as my Lord and Savior. I got married, and I have been blessed with a son. Life sure does change when you become a parent, but that’s a different story for a different post.

When I look back on my thoughts during childhood I realize one thing: I was wrong. I was very, completely, whole-heartedly wrong.

Not only do I still make mistakes as an adult, I sometimes think I make even more mistakes now, only I can’t just blame it on being a kid! I’ve realized that adults don’t have it all figured out, and there are just some things you must learn for yourself.

As I grew through my teenage years I constantly sought out the “fix-its” to my mistakes and problems on my own. If I said something wrong, I’d wait it out until the guilt and aggravation passed and things would just be okay. If I stormed off in anger because I misinterpreted something, or if there was a miscommunication, I would hold a grudge until I felt the situation was corrected.

Right now, I’m going through a large set of changes in my life – a metamorphosis if you will. My belief systems are being challenged. My thought processes are being changed. This isn’t a bad, thing, however. In fact, I feel like it’s such a positive process that I’ve decided to share it with you all. In this post I’m talking about a combination of emotional and belief changes that take the form of me understanding that adults simply don’t have it all together. Really, the point is that no one does. 

I used to think that I needed to walk the Earth being as perfect as I could. No one would listen to me if I made mistakes. No one would love me if I made mistakes. No one would want me if I made mistakes. Through the past couple of years I’ve undergone a softening of my heart and I feel that I’ve been able to understand a lot of things that God has been trying to tell me.

As we live, we grow. When you grow you’re constantly learning, and you learn from mistakes. In fact, my belief now is that we NEED to make mistakes. When we do something wrong or misstep it allows us to reach out to God and ask for His help. We need His guidance. In essence, making mistakes brings us closer to God. Of course, you must understand that it’s an opportunity to reach for Him first and not rely on your own devices.

The main difference between my old way of thinking and the new way of thinking that’s been put in my heart is simple: you’re going to mess up every now and then, but when you do it’s an opportunity to ask for grace and assistance in dealing with the nature of the mistake from the one and only source that has the power to make things right: our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. I no longer blame myself or beat myself up when I make a mistake until I fix it myself in my older age – now I know better.

God has blessed me with more patience in my adulthood than I’d ever imagined having growing up. What’s more is that He’s blessed those around me with that same gift in dealing with me! He can – and will – do the same for you, so don’t be hard on yourself. 

Before I go, take into consideration these couple of verses, and remember: no one person is perfect. We’re all works in progress.

Psalm 37:23-24
“The LORD makes firm the steps of the one who delights in Him; though he may stumble, he will not fall, for the LORD upholds him with His hand.”
Proverbs 3:5-6
“Trust the LORD with all your heart and lean not into your own understanding; in all your ways submit to Him and He will make your paths straight.”

- Raine